I'M JUST WONDERING
 

Perhaps I am blind,
maybe not too sharp,
for the questions that fill my head.
I'm sure you know the answers,
to all my wondering.

I've known many,
who spent their entire lives,
with serious religion,
they believed in God,
went to church every Sunday,
and prayed each night.....
and yet they remained,
as they were,
nothing in them ever changed,
they lived in gloom,
they lived in fear,
they lived in pain,
and happiness was NOT them.

I'm just wondering,
about what goes through,
minds that experience this,
while the sick stay sick,
the lonely stay lonely,
the scared are still scared,
the doubters still doubt,
those who don't trust,
those who don't believe,
the needy still needy.

I know many at this point,
feel worse than they did before,
but they feel they don't believe enough,
they feel they don't have enough faith,
they feel they are bad people,
they feel they pray wrong,
and they tighten the screws.

I know people won't give ME that many chances,
many give not even one,
you wouldn't accept anything,
that had you giving a lifetime,
and only feeling more guilty at the end.

If my forever were promised as HAPPY,
if I was told this to be fact,
I'd be dancing in the street in joy,
I went to my window,
pulled back the drapes,
the street is empty.

I'm just wondering,
do people really believe,
within their private selves,
and if so, why are they sad,
and why are they unhappy,
and why do they hurt,
and why don't they trust,
and why don't they believe.

God and your Lord tell you to be FREE,
that they gave you life to ENJOY,
why, I'm just wondering,
are most not like that at all.

They pray for health,
and others pray for them,
and they remain as they are,
they pray for happiness,
and many pray for them,
they still hide in their rooms,
they pray for help, so many kinds,
and many pray for them,
the same they remain.

God told us to happy within,
it is something I have found,
God told us to believe in ourself,
it is something I have found,
God told us to help one another,
it is something I try to do,
God told us to believe, to trust,
to have faith in one another,
I reach out and all are scared to respond,
they don't believe me, or trust me,
perhaps, I am a threat,,,,I am TOO happy,
a suspicious character,
even though I am doing as God says ?

I'm just wondering,
why it is ,
that no one seems to care,
I'm just wondering,
why it is,
that people accept,
a life LESS,
than what they deserve,
and pray and believe,
and nothing changes,
and yet.
 

©Written by: Ed Kassirer
July 12, 2001